“Kaleidoscope of Faith” by Zainul Nasser


Takhtnashini in Nairobi
An event so momentous,
So significant
My heart is filled with wonder
And childish piety


Giving Bay’ah in Mombasa
Hazar Imam’s gentle hand
On my bowed shoulder
Benign, protective


The kaleidoscope is set
In simple, comforting patterns
Glowing brightly throughout childhood


Religion is woven
Through our lives
Jamat Khana as familiar
As our homes
Pictures of Hazar Imam
Surround us
A constant, reassuring presence


Childhood ends
And with it certainty
New ideas, new experiences
Overwhelm me
For a while, my inattentive soul
Loses its way
The familiar patterns
Seem blurred and distorted


But I am blessed
At Palace Gate we students
Sit at Hazar Imam’s feet
So fortunate
In this small, intimate setting
Hazar Imam’s gaze
Seems to rest on me
Infinitely understanding, infinitely merciful


My struggling soul is rewarded
Focus is restored
The patterns in the kaleidoscope
Acquire coherence, depth and sparkle


And over the years
The colours dim or brighten
But the patterns remain steady
And my hopeful soul
Journeys on
Towards
Golden Jubilee Imamat day


We come together
In joyous anticipation
Our hearts beguiled
By fervent Zikar tasbis, kasidah
And the rousing ‘Munajat’


We are shown
Hazar Imam’s untiring efforts
To help the needy
To bring hope and harmony and beauty
Everywhere
A shining beacon in a time of darkness
Our hearts sing with pride
We are inspired
We are humbled


And we are blessed
With the Irshad
So caring and compassionate
So full of love, wisdom and goodness


The kaleidoscope clicks
Into perfect symmetry
The colours polished to a lustrous luminescence
The child in me
Exults in the jewelled splendour
My imperfect soul
Is filled with gratitude
At this gift, this grace
And prays for it to last.

________________________

Zainul Nasser ( nee Karmali ) was born in Mombasa and grew up there. She came to the U.K. as an undergraduate and has lived here ever since.

Zainul has an Honours degree in English from Bristol University and a Postgraduate Degree in Education. She taught English in secondary schools in Birmingham for several years. She also served on various committees including Education and Women’s activities.

Zainul is married with three grown up children. She now lives in Sutton Coldfield, indulging her passion for reading and occasionally writing poetry.

Please click Expressions of the Golden Jubilee: “The Festival of Poetic Expressions” for links to more poems and photos from the event.

Editor’s note: The image shown at the top of the poem is not part of the original submission by the contributor.

One thought on ““Kaleidoscope of Faith” by Zainul Nasser

  1. I am so delighted to see this poem from a friend I have known in Birmingham whom I admire. Her poem is very moving and I saw it being read out on that day when the Festival took place. We all travelled together by a minibus. A memory I treasure.

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